hikarifan has written 26 posts for Elixir of Materia

Deflecting The Wink Eye

Big changes are happening – most of them are great! I asked Joey to come over to our apartment for Anime Thursday last week, and Sekigai – Judy – got so amazingly pissed off. I told her the week before that I was seeing him, and she seemed to take it really cool. She actually … Continue reading

The Warm Rush of Recognition

Last night I finally slept! What’s more, I had company – and I can finally, finally talk about what’s been going on for the past few months. Simply put, I stole my roommate’s boyfriend, sort of. I met Joey in April, when he was still seeing Sekigai – he came over a few times to … Continue reading

Dreaming of Unfussy Rest

The anti-anxiety pills the doctor gave me are super strong, but even they aren’t keeping me in bed at night. Instead of waking up and remembering all of the crazy things I’ve been doing, like taking various bottles out of the refrigerator and lining them up on the counter at 3AM, I just have brief … Continue reading

My Little Summer Dungeon

The PlayStation Network is live again! I’m totally downloading my Qore, Pulse, and a fistful of Minis and demos right now – I haven’t seen inFAMOUS 2 in action yet so the demo will be appreciated. Next week is E3, and so endless Sony, Microsoft and Nintendo keynote speeches and Joystiq updates will definitely take … Continue reading

Rejecting The Anti-Drama Pills

I hate Kaiser so much! I spent half of Friday down there, sitting around the hospital waiting for appointments, then sitting in the lab waiting for blood and urine tests, then waiting in the pharmacy for pills I didn’t even want. My “doctor” listened to my highly censored story, about how my memory was “fuzzy” … Continue reading

Instant Deja Vu Nostalgia

Hello. My name is not Emily, and I don’t remember creating this blog. I don’t remember a lot of things. On Tuesday night I “woke up” in front of my computer, staring at a YouTube video of me from February 18th. It looked like me. Sounded like me. But I don’t remember making it. I … Continue reading

Blog Paradoxes and Birthday Attacks

I’m in so much shit right now. I can’t even begin to explain how everything has gone wrong. Even if I could, I couldn’t. Tokie proved that simply telling the truth can have amazingly bad consequences, when she shared information about Helena and Cassandra’s history. The sheer act of posting those thoughts had led to … Continue reading

Babysitting The Trouble Twins

The world does not end on May 21st, 2011. Not even a little bit. How do I know? We’ll, I’ve been there, and much further still. I still can’t believe it, but I have no other choice. Everything’s different now. After what happened at Ai’s birthday on Sunday, I’ve been extra careful about my sanity. … Continue reading

Modem Assisted Suicide

When I could barely walk, my father had a then-impressive Macintosh IIci, and a 2400 baud modem. One of the first nightmares I ever had involved the screech that it gave off when it was dialing up AOL or whatever. To my young mind, it was growling at me, ready to pounce – at night … Continue reading

Funny “Ghostbusters” Reference Omitted

Last night I found out that Tokie found and caught my Ghost. I’m so amazingly happy about that! Now I don’t have to worry about any more strange videos with my virtual self in a bikini, or worse. I don’t have to imagine my friends, family or random strangers on BART finding racy, fake pictures … Continue reading

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