Last night I found out that Tokie found and caught my Ghost. I’m so amazingly happy about that!
Now I don’t have to worry about any more strange videos with my virtual self in a bikini, or worse. I don’t have to imagine my friends, family or random strangers on BART finding racy, fake pictures of me.
At first, I didn’t believe her story, so she sent me the video log from her visit to the Ghost Auction, for lack of a better term. It lasted about 20 minutes, and it really seemed, well, real – better special effects than anything I’d ever seen in a movie. Of course, I wasn’t worried about counting the blades of astroturf – I was transfixed by seeing myself naked and gigantic, looming large over the stadium of pervs.
I guess it’s flattering in a completely awful way – only a few girls were picked to be exploited out of the whole Die Database Fan Cloud, and I guess I’m someone’s idea of relative perfection. I just pray that I never run into that person, unless I’m fully armed and ready for vengeance.
On the other hand, I don’t want to think about it ever again. I erased the video as soon as I finished watching it, so it couldn’t possibly fall into the wrong hands due to my mistake.
I hope hope hope that no other copies of my Ghost exist – Tokie was pretty certain that was impossible, but after this mess who knows? She’s still studying it right now, to try to find any connections to whomever stole it, or had it up for sale.
I’m still worried about the appearance of Miranda’s Ghost at the end. Not only was someone trying to bid on me, hiding behind her image, but there was no way for Tokie to simply take control away. Miranda wasn’t even in the auction, which means that her Ghost must have been sold weeks ago, perhaps soon after I first found those pictures of her in the club and on dating sites. Why did they pick her first?
Or, was she even the first? I don’t even want to think about the implications – the absolute worse invasion of privacy possible, and it could be happening to hundreds of women and girls. Thousands? I don’t even want to scale up beyond that….
Anyway, I don’t think I’m going to post any more videos for a while. I’m still freaked out about putting my image out there on the net again, not knowing what someone might do with it. I guess I’ll still leave the old videos up for now – we’ll see how I feel in the summer.
Speaking of which, summer! Finals are this week, and my hard ones are already over.
I don’t have to take any extra classes this summer, since it looks like I’m going to pass that awful history seminar after all. So, besides working extra hours at the café, and visiting home for a week, I’m going to try to enjoy the best of the Bay Area with no ticking clock in the form of overpriced textbooks, calling for me to take late afternoon naps on their open pages.
OK – I’m already running late for Open Mic Night at Morrison Hall, so I’ll write more soon.